Inside my secret mind, he's so fine, so what'll it be? Let me see...

Hihi! I'm posting more often! Yay! Blogging is so hard to get into, now i understand why the really good bloggers are famous.. Senior year is kind of difficult and unpleasant so far. My favorite class in the past, theatre, is majorly sucking so far. We did a Shakespeare Competition at the beginning of September; the intermediate and advanced classes do it, and of the 50 kids that start out, 12-15 break to finals and then there is 1st, 2nd, and 3rd place trophies! Everybody does a Sonnet, and the the finalists perform a monologue, and i broke to finals. :D I did Sonnet 112, about how i don't have anyone except this one person, and i will change myself in any way for them. It was deep, but easy for me to do, because i have a person like that in my life. Then my monologue was the Lady Macbeth mad scene. Oh yeah. I went completely crazy and left the audience speechless, it felt good!

A picture from the end of my monologue, i'm talking to the dead, saying 'Come' and after this, i walk off stage and commit suicide. :P

I'm in Acting to be a crowd pleaser, i don't get that feeling of being silly on stage. Once i walk out into the lights all that matters is that the audience gets drawn innto the story i'm spinning. During the intermission when the judges deliberated so many people told me i'd win, even other kids parents. But, i didn't even place.. sadness.. I talked to my teacher, Mr. G, after and he said my interpretation was slightly off, and that part of it is that she is really quiet, so no one knows she's there. I screamed and shouted.. so i see his point. Funnily enough, the parents of the girl who got first came up to me later and told me they had thought i was going to win, and that they had their video camera on my face instead of their daughters when the results were read. How tragically sad..

So that kind of sucked, and then Mr. G broke the news that we weren't doing a fall musical, instead we were going to QUADRUPLE cast a 10 character Neil Simon play called Rumors. well. Needless to say, we were less than thrilled, but after we read the play, the whole class fell in love with the characters. But more bad news was on the horizon, we ended up not being able to do Rumors. The play was written with a lot of cuss words, and Mr. G had edited them out, but to get the rights to perform the play he would have to sign an addendum saying that he would not change any words of language in anyway.. I guess Neil Simon got pissed that so many schools were editing his plays.. so now we are reading another play, called The Curious Savage, which has possibility and would only require a triple cast... In short, Theatre is sucking this year.

Video Journalism is better though, we have a REALLY small class, only 11 people, the 4 bosses included. I'm a boss this year, which is cool, and the kids are more inclined to listen to us as the class is so small. However, since we are so few, the bosses still have to make videos, which i had really hoped to not have to do.. D: At least we are all awesome!

We spend our time in Video Journalism wisely! This is last years class, no new pics yet!

From the left, Jake, Keeble, John, Chase, Me, Adriana, and Tyler

Then of course i have my huge haul of AP classes, and Economics, which are the same as they were in the last post. Everything is moving sort of smoothly, at least this year i'm not drowning in school, and i have the spare time to do things i really want to do.

I got a Garter belt on Friday!! It makes me so happy! i found one at Victoria's Secret, its all black lace, and it's adorable! there's a bit of an issue of either keeping the thigh highs low enough to be seen below my skirt hem, and keeping the belt high enough. The lace just keeps stretching, and i have to check it to keep it up, but it looks so awesome i don't even care!! :D I'll post a picture of my outfit when i wear it to school on monday in a short post tomorrow!

I'm changing a lot, i can tell. It's more important to me to do what my heart is telling me, and i'm not over thinking things as much. I'm still a worrywart, but at least now i'm going out on the town to have actual things to worry about, as opposed to stressing over the stories of what people are telling me they've done. I'm making wool roving dreads, and some fluffies (furry leg warmers that ravers wear) for a rave outfit! I'm doing the whole outfit in White, Black, and Yellow! I have this black punk shirt, which i'm cutting to turn it into a belly shirt, and then i'm going to hem it and sew white cotton on the inside and slice open the black so you can see it. I have these little white shorts, and my garter belt with these black spider-webby fishnet thigh highs and then these tiered yellow fluffies! And of course, cyber falls in all 3 colors! I made a sketch that i uploaded to show what it'd look like!

The yellow shading didn't quite show up and the dreads look weird, but

this is the general idea! :D

My best friend Jamie has a friends who is throwing his first rave, as a birthday thing, and we can get in free. We're both only staying until like 11:00pm, but it starts at 7:00 so it'll be a lot of good music and fun! I hope i can have this outfit ready by the rave!! The 'rents haven't said anything, so either they don't want to say anything, or they don't care, but either way i'm glad it hasn't come to an argument yet. I'm at the point where I can't live just thinking and dreaming anymore, i have to either put my intentions into action of forget them.

The whole college thing is going on, and I have no desire what so ever to try to get into any college. Even the FIDM has lost it's spark, all i want to do is get out of Arizona, and take Jamie with me. She's doing the same thing, only she has felt this way for longer, so she is handling it better. I think i'll just go backpack around the world and learn about everything that interests me. I have so many things i want to know more about that i can't understand living in Mesa.

This place is like a gigantic insane asylum, everyone ignores your silent pleas for help, telling you to accept how it is, and when you start screaming and demanding to leave, they play the 'you couldn't survive on your own' card.

I don't want a house and a dog and a mortgage, I would love nothing more than to have to sleep on the streets and go to a soup kitchen. I want to understand everything, and living in solitary confinement with padded walls and having everyone try to insulate the world in bubble wrap isn't going to do it for me. I'm not just going to pick an occupation and sit in a cubicle waiting for my mid-life crisis to hit.. I want to figure out what i want to do before i do it. Right now i have equal ambition to be a: stripper, fashion designer, waitress, news anchor, chef, politician, teacher, author, actress, and DJ. I can't just decide what i want to be right now, i don't know enough to even make an educated guess!!

I hope this will all work out, 1 year in the whole wide world, and i won't even know myself! I might turn out to be a republican, amish housewife living with a labrador retriever, green lawn, and a blonde doctor for a husband.

Although, i must say. Somehow, I doubt it.

I'll keep you updated!

Ciao Chics!

Unconcious suspended in time

A note to accompany my previous post:

Hey-o. So i majorly dissed my Econ teacher in my last post, and then i went into school today and she came over to my desk and talked to me for 5 minutes about fashion, and my style, and told me i'm a very creative person. Then in AcDec she came in to see our teacher, and she saw me and said, "Now isn't she just the sweetest prettiest girl?". SO. I feel like a HUGE jerk. I guess first impressions can be wrong, she might not be the best teacher, but she's trying hard enough for the cynic inside me to back off a bit. Not a whole lot though, because she forgot her laptop at her house, which had the powerpoint that was our day's lesson on it; another day of Economic education gone... I'll put her in the [Redeeming Qualities] folder until further notice, or rather until further tests of how far she will enforce dress code. ;D

Gyarados destroy Dress Code! Fuck Yeah.

Lator Gators!

I just ran, ran so far away, ran all night and day, i couldn't get away

Hihi! Long time, no post! I started school again, and i've got that sense of eternal stress back. *sigh* I went through my sick phase, and now i'm in the status quo of AP classes! (Everytime i get stressed, i get violently sick, and then recover. It's like seasickness, only it happens every time i switch from unstressed to stressed and, funnily enough, when i go from stressed to unstressed! silly body...) I'm taking Calculus AB with my all time favorite teacher! He's crazy and awesome, and he's the only teacher who has actually motivated me to work on math. Usually if teachers just go through the motions of teaching i have to drive to do well and settle for the same mediocrity they expect.

I also joined the Academic Decathalon (AcDec) team because my English teacher from last year is one of the coaches, she's another teacher i'm motivated to work for. It's a LOT of work, we have a mandatory 1 hour a night study quota, in addition to any homework we've got for the night, which is crazy, but it's fun too. The stuff we're studying isn't boring, and i have the seasons book on audiotape on my ipod, so it goes relatively smoothly. In addition to those classes i've got AP psychology, which is not really meeting my expectations. There are so many students in the AP classes that the school didn't have enough books and so our class hour didn't get the books until a full week after the other students. I'm really interested in Psychology because i know a lot of people involved in drugs and i want to learn about how drugs affect the mind, and why people consistently do them, but if this class doesn't get better fast, i'm just going to drop it so i can do more for AcDec and Calc.

I know it's probably not good, but i'm really fascinated with drugs... ;3

Other than those classes i've got Theatre, because i love acting, Video Journalism, because i love the people, and Economics/Government, because it's a graduation requirement. Econ is a joke, it's my teachers first year teaching, and you can totally tell. She'll say something she thinks is funny, pause for a laugh, and then explain her hilarity when we don't laugh. This whole process happens 5 - 6 times every class and takes up 15 - 20 minutes of our 55 minute class, which she should be using to make us do something other than book work and powerpoint slideshows, which, in turn, leads me to believe i'm going to learn more in the 4-week Economics section in AcDec then i will ever learn from this joke of a lady. On top of all this negativity, she keeps dress coding my friend for things like bra straps showing, and midriff baring, which just tells me she's a cow with no eye for fashion, because my friend looks adorable pre-ugly-dress-code-t-shirt... it also tells me that i won't be able to get away with anything either. Oh boy, another year of bribing the dress code lady with bags of hershey's kisses, woots!

In other news, I'm thinking about under going some pretty big changes. I just realized that i mostly feel comfortable looking at other people dressed in offensive clothing and admiring it but not really doing i myself. I mean, in Mesa having bare shoulders is paramount to murdering someone, so i already offend people, but i mean like punk, and cyber punk, and lingerave! Wearing clothing like that would be awesome, but i've never really done it before. Well, that's changing. I bought a pair of super awesome silver combat boots, and i'm trying to buy a garter belt, so i can do the thigh-highs and garter straps showing below a skirt thing.

See! It looks amazing!!! :D

I have toed the line of good taste for a long time, now i know where i want to cling to it and where i want to jump off head first! I decided this about 2 weeks before i went back to school, so my best friend, Jamie Cherie, and i went to do a photoshoot! we found this awesome abandoned warehouse out by the freeway, which was probably not a very safe place, and took some amazing pictures! Here are some of my favorites:

Topsy turvy! She's on a wall that has fallen over, that diagonal wall behind her is actually level with the floor!

Look into my eyes..

Like madonna and beki bondage had a love child...

No, it's not real blood, but it did give us a pause, I'm being eaten by a wall!!

Ashes, Ashes, We all fall down!

It was pretty amazing, and dangerous, but that made it fun! :D i think we might end up doing another shoot there in a while, but we might bring more people, particularly some big buff men. In corrolation with my fashion change i' thinking of cutting my hair. like, CUTTING my hair, doing it really short, like this girl's:

I think it'd look good, and i'm really tired of long hair, especially in Arizona, but i'm hesitant because if it doesn't look good, i don't really have anywhere to go... and when i brought this idea up to Jamie, she said not to do it. Her opinion made me pause, so i'm holding off on this plan for a while, but i really want to do it. I probably will..

On another road, my dream of becoming a fashion designer seems to be coming to fruition! i talked to my college-crazy neighbor about it, and she thinks it could work. I'll need some serious scholarshps to fund an Associate of Arts degree from FIDM, but I'm willing to do it. Jamie is on board with the plan, and i wouldn't be able to do it without her, so it seems everything is moving in a good direction! We have started sewing together, just taking old clothes and bags and scrapping them and putting them together in a diy-punk sort of way! we're making a skirt and jacket right now, Jamie is taking the sleeves off a denim jacket she found at good will, and then sewing patches of fabric, zippers, and safety pins onto it. I'm took the safety belt strap off an old purse of mine and we're turning it into a belt for a lace skirt of mine. It'll be an outfit soon, and we're going to make some cyber dreads to top off the whole outfit!

These are cyber dreads, sometimes you can mix in things like strips of film, nylon tubing, springs, and other junk to make them interesting!

When we're all done we'll go take pics at that warehouse and try to sell them on Etsy or Livejournal or something. I'm super excited! I'll post pics of the outfit when it's done, along with some shots of the AcDec team, my new boots, and life in general next post! Have fun in school, children, and check for updates, i'll try to do one every weekend!

Ciao!

Won't sign away my life to, no paper Gangster

Hihi!! This blogging thing is hard to get into, I never think of it! sorry guys! I promised a lot of pictures of my family from when they came to visit, but I never even got any. My niece, Emily, took a lot of pictures with her camera, but I just can't get a old of them... However, I do have pictures from the play! Woots! Here you go!

This is the cast during our all-night rehearsals! We do them out of costume, so this is all of our awesomeness!! I'm in the middle, in the black shirt, underneath the box!

This is the whole cast! We're all in costume, i'm in the second row, in the red dress, and our music director is in the front, lying down. The two girls in green shirts were the choreographers for the show, and the guy in the middle, with the goatee was our assistant music director.

This is another shot of our music director, he's a funny guy... static electricity and balloons. Perfect combo.

For the finale we had to put this goop on our faces and go on stage under black lights... creepy stuff, and the goop was so gross!! it took forever to dry!! This is some of the cast with the goop on, the green are the people who get eaten by the plant, the rest of us are blue which means we are alive.

I'll try to get some shots of the actual play, to upload soon! Ta Ta!!

brring, brring; hello, hello; tango tango!!

The family left, gone back to Colorado... sad day. although the day before they left, there was some drama that went down! My youngest niece, Wesley Ann got in a spot of trouble with my dog... Emily, my other niece was petting my dog Jenny, and Wes leaned over to pet jenny too, and scared her, causing her to growl and spin around. It wouldn't have been such an issue, but she hit Wesley in the mouth, and ripped her lip a good 3/4 of an inch. I had to drive over to our family-friends's house, he's a docter, and then he went in to his office early to sew her up. She's all good, with ten stitches, and there won't be any lasting issues, but the drama factor sucked quite a bit. I still don't have any pictures, but i'll post them when i get them!

Our school play, Little Shop Of Horrors, is coming up next week, i'm super excited!! i'm only an ensemble member (female ensemble #3, to be exact, a highly important part!) but it's pretty cool to even be in the play! i'm a bit worried, because we have the set built and everything, but we haven't heard anything about costumes. That is kind of, sort of, REALLY important... the director talked to some one about doing the costumes back when the play had been freshly casted, the mom of a friend of a girl in the theatre program, and someone who helped with them costuming on the fall musical, but there hasn't been any new information.

(a poster for the play, about a nerd in love with a ditzy blonde who finds a blood-eating plant and uses it to gain himself fame so she will love him. both end up getting eaten, how poetic!)

I have been thinking about my costume,and i know what i could wear if it came down to it, but one ensemble member having all their shit together doesn't mean anything compared to a whole play and cast!! the scariest thing is that this isn't a one-costume play, there are 3 doo-wop girls who have a costume change for each new song they sing (Little shop, Da-doo, Meek shall Inherit, Somewhere that's Green, You Never Know, Shang-a-lang, Suddenly Seymour, and the Finale) thats at least 5 outfits, including floor-length ball gowns, feather boas and heels!! That lady better have everything, or WE ARE SCREWED. I'll put up pictures from the play, when i get them, so my next post will probably be of solid pictures! :D Got to go practise my dancing for the musical, I want this show to be awesome ,even if it's a 80% chance we'll all be scantily clad in bad costumes. Ta ta! (maybe literally...)

i'm so, i'm so, starstruck...

They're here!! The family arrived yesterday in a blaze of car, cuteness, and swimming. The kids are really cute! the oldest one, Matthew, 13, is really into baseball and basketball, and spent the first section of being here checking on his scores in the march madness thing. I completely don't understand, but he's a funny kid! Kind of sarcastic, which is cool with me, the cynic that i am. Emily, 10, and Westley Ann, 8, are really funny, like a tag team of talking! they all seem to want to know me, which i hadn't expected. Susan, my sister, has made a complete 180˚, and she's funny, and friendly, and social, which i was totally not expecting! Micheal, my brother-in-law, is the quietly funny type, and ex-AP-history teacher, and he has that teacher voice, that makes me stop dead and sends a chill through my blood. They all went swimming yesterday, and then i made the girls some Nutella bread and we played toilet tag in the front yard. toilet tag is one person chases everyone, and when they tag you, you have to go down on you haunches, and hold your arm out, like a toilet, and then the other not-it people have to touch your hand to unfreeze you, or get tagged themselves. we were only playing with four people though, so it was really hard to get everyone tagged... i just about passed out from trying! At least we're all bonding! after they had all gone to bed, i went to hang out with David, Allen, and Donny, and we walked around in a park and i found a really nice imitation riviera watch!! gold plating and everything! i guess my spring break luck is turning, and i'll Craig's list the watch, buy some Vivienne Westwood rocking horse shoes!! Suh-weet!!! i'll put up some pics when i get them! :D

We are family!! Talkin' bought my sisters and me!!

Well, spring break has come and, for the most part gone. another family adventure, and another holiday lost. My Dad was married before he married my mom, and had had two daughters with that woman, so i've got two step-half-sisters, in addition to my brother, and they hate us... well, they hate my mom, brother and me. They like my dad, which is why one of them decided to come visit us. dun dun duuuuuhh. So about two weeks ago my mom went into over drive and started hanging al the art in the house, and vacuuming everything, and buying chairs and poufs and doilies, and we still haven't finished cleaning the house!! She should be here tomorrow, with her husband and three kids in tow. Now, i USUALLY am a very family oriented person, because i want to know the people related to me by blood, but these two sisters have been known to treat my brother and i with cruel and unusual punishments, unowed to OUR attitudes, and my mom with complete indifference. They don't have sticks up their butts, they have whole trees, and i REALLY don't want to put up with them for 4 days, and 6 nights.

Apart from that family fiasco, my brother, who has, lets say, an aversion to following the laws, got arrested on Wednesday, spent the night in jail, and got bailed out by his girlfriend yesterday night. By god, if there isn't an illegal substance or law that he hasn't broken or used, i'll eat my closet... This is the second time he's been in the Mesa city jail, and the second time he has been in there for contempt. Contempt is a fancy way of saying the dumb shit skipped his court date, and thereby pissed off the judge. So Spring Break isn't going to great for me, and i can NOT wait to get back to school, even though this last quarter of my junior year is bound to suck, at least it gets me away from Felon boy, and his side-kick Warrant-For-Your-Arrest, and our archnemisis, the Weaver family. Doo do do DOOOOOO!! It's a bird, It's a Plane, It's Super Kiko! fleeing the site of the family havoc!!!

Bahahaha... to top this whole week off, i have been so busy containing fires that i've been stuck in a pink tank top, sports bra, and Kim possible cargo pants this whole damn week!! That's Right!! I've haven't even had time to change outfits! that, my friends is the biggest tragedy of them all. not only is it unsanitary, but it's the absolutely most un-kiko thing i've done in years... Damn family, allways getting in the way of me and my fashion statements. I'll upload pics of the whole schenanigan when i get them. Stay tuned, Super Kiko and the Attack of the Family-Creature will be back after these short messages!!

The new and not-quite-new of my Fashion

(Me^)

Hihi! My name is Kiko Cheyenne Guntermann, and I am very new to blogging. I've watched my friends do it for years, but I never tried... probably because of my lack of understanding of html speak (don't expect any fancy fonts or colors for a while guys)

I love fashion and clothing and putting together outfits that get me noticed. My greatest fear is that I won't be remembered, that i'll die, and the only people who will know will be my family. When we did the history of the earth in biology, it completely freaked me out! I will live 100 years, max, and then I will not exist on the planet that has gone from the big bang, to a future 5 billion years from that point! How inconsequential is my existence?! I guess I am very fame-whorish, for thinking this way, but I can't help it!

And after I got home that day, after that biology lesson, I tried to think of people who surpassed time, who existed beyond the physical. George Washington, Abraham Lincoln, Jesus Christ, Napoleon Bonaparte, Adolf Hitler, Ghandi, ... Well, i'm sure as hell not going to take over france OR germany, and I'm to tiny, weak and unintelligent to fight or plan a war! I can't pull off an indian hunger strike, and I don't think getting nailed to a cross is how I want to go out (i've always imagined it as something big, with smoke and glitter and fireworks, and maybe a dramatic falling off a building, I don't know. The jury is still out.) And then it hit me, like a battering ram against a castle door: Fashion.

As Coco Chanel said, "Fashion Fades, Style is eternal", and SHE is still remembered today! Is it not true that, if you are famous enough of a fashion designer, your business continues after you die? Chanel, Prada, the original designers have passed away, but their name, idea, and line still continues! Well, with that little nugget of gold sown in my brain, my previously unimportant sort-of-style transformed into an all-comsuming power over my future! That was 3 years ago, the December of 2007. And since then, i've devised a style for myself! It's not perfect, and there are a lot of people who still give me the look that shows my idea wasn't as good as I thought it was at 6:30 in the morning, on 4 hours of sleep. But I'm working, and every day I find new ways to use what I have, and different things that, at first glance, don't have anything in common, but once put on, match!

(Japanese Punk ^)

I've tried dressing in every genre out there, and i combine different one from different continents in my daily life. From Lolita to Punk, Kodona to Hime, Rave-wear to Gothic, a little bit of everything makes up my style. I have several friends, some not into fashion much beyond the t-shirt, jeans, and flip-flop staples, and others that teach me new fashion ideas on a daily basis! I'll introduce you to them at a later date, with lots of pics!

(Japanese Street Fashion^)

I'll blog some more soon, explain Lolita, and do bios on my friends, check in soon on Kiko, Coco and the Fashion in between!